A look outside my window,into the darkness..

A look outside my window..
into the darkness


one day,after coming back from class i had this argument with my parents..you know how it is, yelling and yelling trying to prove your point ( which you ultimately aren't able to ) and all..
that day,broken i sat down and contemplated if i actually could run away from home..
i looked outside my window,on a late winters night,staring..
i thought,maybe i could just not come home one day after class,wander off somewhere and never return to this house which according to me was the abode of all the problems,grief possible in the world.
Thats it..
i pictured myself getting off the van after class at my stop and going away,across IIT towards Munirka at around 8pm..
all was well,till i bumped into this wierd guy who seemed to emit vibes of helping..i spoke to him,confided in him,told him how life was not worth living anymore..how my friends couldn't console me enough to prevent all this..everything..

being sweet,he consoled me and took me to this little house..i saw children there,little children..he told me he'd picked them up from the streets to give them a better life..
while he went away to arrange some food for me,i interacted with those kids..i was awed, such cute kids,sparkling eyes and started thinking so highly of that man..

i asked one child sitting all alone in one corner as to how she liked this life,was it any better than the previous one..she broke down..through tears she told me she hated it here,wanted to go back to her parents..missed everything of her earlier much happier life,she told me that she was made to beg on the streets and if she didn't earn Rs.200 each day she would be beaten up and sexually assaulted by that man..i was shocked,disguisted,i felt stupid..it suddenly dawned on me that all kids there were girls and why their eyes sparkled..i almost burst out crying..how could i?? just then i thought of helping the kids..
lucky me,i didn't mention to that man about me carrying my phone ( these gadgets i tell you can be such a boon ) surprisingly i had balance too that day,so i called up the police told them everything,and asked them to hurry..i safely handed the kids to the police before he came ie..

just after the police had left,the man came..he looked at me with bloodshot eyes..i wanted to run away..but my reflexes seemed to have given up..he pulled me by the arm took me out of the house,tried to force me into a car,thats when my brain clicked and i cried out as loud as i could for help..thankfully some poeple came and prevented me from being sold off to a brothel..
That day i realised that this world was much more cruel than it seems sitting at home..
i was exposed to the harsh realities of flesh trade, where even minors weren't spared..
i couldn't believe it, i just couldn't..

i reached home,surprisingly did not hear a thrashing but was given a sedative and put to sleep by my mother..
the next day,she tried to force me into believeing it was a nightmare..but i knew it wasn't..
determined to put a stop to this all, i decided to become a journalist..
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i didn't realise when i felt asleep while thinking about the ultimate escape from all that was fake..
i woke up the next morning, to find out that this was a nightmare ( i was greatful to god that it was )
and yes,
i gave up the thought of running away.


PS-i made this up!
sorry have been a jerk all this while,not updated my blog..but i'm back to life!
do read and comment generously..
love
Radhika
signs out.
Amen.

Tagged :)

sorry,i know i'm a lump,haven't been posting lately..*lazy me*
anyway,
okay,so i've been tagged by lasha and vasudha ( since these are the only two people who view my blog regularly..)

1.I have a thing for bass..whenever i'm listening to songs i tend to pay more attention to the bass element in the song be it the bass guitar,bass part or anything..

2.I somehow always tend to harmonise..even if its clashing,i JUST HAVE TO HARMONISE!! :p waise nothing like i suck at natural harmony or something..i'm pretty good at it,anyway i get along well with the harmony in the song so its okay..

3.I have a habbit of reading the newspaper either in the evening or at 1am at night :)

4.If i'm keeping timing for a song,i have to keep timing with my hands and legs..wierd i know but thats me! and somehow,i always try to do the double clap for keeping the timing..i feel it peps up the song :) . Also,i try to find connection between notes..i don't know why..but i just do..

5.When i loose it (which is pretty often by the way) i just lock myself up in my room,open my hair and do head banging,those who've seen me do it know how i really am like then..

6. I have a wierd habbit of doing things! lol
no as in i mean like i have this bag of prized possessions which has things like tania koshi's toffee wrapper, the wrapper of the chewing gum my first crush offered me etc.
then i have this heart touchers' list..
basically i make an account of everything that has pleased me or is close to my heart ;)
i love writing :)
then i had my personal diary,but it got over..so i need to make a new one! like yayee!!
i'm so excited! lol ;)
and well,
THAT'S ME FOR YOU,UNCENSORED :)

Radhika is in love..

ahem ahem..
*clears her throat in reply to furtive,piercing glances of poeple reading this, and says : *
no dumbos..
not with the guy i have a crush on but with my friends!! :)
love them soooo much!
3rd March '08
a date i will certainly never forget..
12 :47 pm
I reached the 3c's food court,where we all were supposed to meet,sometime later..
diya,vasudha,saloni and shreya came..
after arranging for the chairs and tables ( cz we were 20 people) and when everybody had arrived..
we started eating..!! hehe
bas jab woh shuru hua na,uske baad khatam nahin hua,i mean really..we guys are such habshi's na!! oof! food court mein toh khaya hi.phir mocha mein jaakar bhi khaya..
matlab tum sab ka ekdum solid plan tha mujhe,nik,shrimp aur sadhvi ko sadak par laane ka...
par phir charvi bhi mil gayi thi mocha mein..toh we thot ki we'll just give our bill to her :p lol
(obviously we did NOT do that!)
and now the best part!
THE GIFTS!!!! :p
i justtt love opening gifts!
i'm really happy my friends know me soo well,
they gave me everything i like( everything literally,which also includes their love and chocolates awww :P)
i just loved the silver earings and the belt..
THE BOOK - HOW DID YOU GUYS EVER KNOW I WANTED TO READ THAT BOOK SO BADLY!!! I'm SOOOO HAPPY! I'vE GOT A BOOK TO READ,SOMETHING TO DO!
on the first page shreya wrote,
"hey Radds!
Happy birthday..
hope you enjoy reading this book and get to know ur inner self..
love you
All of us :) "
aww i'm so touched! :)
i faintly remember telling koshi once that i wanted "The monk who sold his ferrari" and wow! i've got it! :)
then,Vasudha's letter
AWWWWWWWW...i lovvve you so much vasudha! that was suchhhh a sweet letter!:)
awwwwww awww awww! :)
all in all,i had a great time yesterday,staying over,our stupid talks,midnight pillow fight,ghost stories and freaky talk,playing cards( spoons and ka ka ba ba awesome games man! )
i love you all sooo much!
thank you (with all my heart) for making my 17th budday so memorable,i will never forget it! :p
*the epic movie was a disaster,par phir bhi..fun aaya! thennkkksss*